I am so sad...

It's a sad day... It has become clear to me that no matter how hard I try, I just can't do it any longer. I have put forth the effort daily to hold things together and it just isn't working, things are just too far gone. I wish I could make things go back to the way they used to be in the beginning, when things were smooth and everything seemed so comfortable. But no matter how much I wish for those days, no matter how I long for the past, those days are gone and I can't get them back.


And so it is with a very heavy heart that I must retire my faded cap, my favorite Red Sox hat.



That's right, I know it's hard to believe but after six years of honorable service my Red Sox hat is in such bad shape that I just can't wear it anymore. It makes me really sad because I love that hat! I got while on a trip to Nashville before K-Ann and I had any kids. Can you imagine? Having to go all the way to Nashville to find a Red Sox hat that fit right? Well, it was worth it. I don't know if I'll ever be able to find another Red Sox hat like it, and I don't know if I'll really try. I did order a really cool Jeep hat last week through the mail. I was really nervous as to whether or not it would fit right because my head is such a weird shape. (for those of you who were wondering, yes, I know my head is a weird shape.) Anyway, the new hat fit perfect right out of the box! I was amazed! It will never be able to replace my first love but I know that it will come through for me on those days where I don't get a shower and my hair needs some taming, when the bugs are bad and it gets doused with deep woods Off, on those hot days on the ball field and it gets so soaked with sweat it weighs as much as a gallon of milk... I just hope it will serve as long and with as much loyalty and perseverance as its predecessor.